What's next? I'm whining in this post

(You have been forewarned.)

That's the question of my life at this point in time.

I'm in a rut. I have no idea what to do next.

I'm 40 years old, so starting a career in a new field doesn't appeal to me. I do not want to start from the bottom, nor can I afford to.

I'd like to take my experience and work on the client side of the business. But, I need the following things to make me happy:

1.) I want to telecommute 2-3 days a week
2.) Keep or raise my current salary
3.) Get more than 4 sick/personal days a year
4.) A decent matching 401k plan
5.) Schedule flexibility so I can attend my kids high school bball games.

I'm not asking for much.

The problem is that to go to the client side would require me to work for a non-profit organization. They cannot afford to pay me. Even if I took a "big" position.

If I stay on the agency side, I have to commute 1-2 hours away. If public transportation were reliable here, that wouldn't be so bad, but it isn't. And the commute time isn't because of distance. Just traffic. Too many damn people on the road. Why should I contribute to that?

Besides, I get home at 7 or 730 at night. And still have to cook dinner? We'd have no family time at all. I can't do that. I can't sacrifice time with my children for money or a big title. ( that is the next step from where I am now)

I'll figure out something to do with my talents that lets me still be the mother I want to be.

If I was strong in my faith, I'd pray on it, leave it in God's hands and do my daily work.

Now, there's a thought...