I keep telling myself
that today
is the last day
the last hour
the last minute
that I will
continue
to deal with
the bullshit
that is
you
And yet
I am still
here
What is my excuse?
I make
more money
I'm smarter
I know that
I can do this
on my own
But
I don't want to
because
I love
you
I gues I know
That if I had to
I could
But I haven't
so far
because I didn't need to
do it
on my own
until now
The scary part is
that time has
arrived
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2 comments:
The scary part is not actually making a move but making a DECISION to make a move.
Girl, doing this is NOT, I repeat NOT going to be easy... but look at it like... chemotherapy. You lose your hair, it makes you sick, you vomit, you retch, you feel awful... but when you go into full remission... there's nothing like the feeling of knowing that the cancer is GONE!!!!
Girl if this is what you need to do, then please... please... do this for yourself. I've been reading you for a WHILE now and we've written similar posts commiserated... You WILL grieve. You WILL cry. You WILL miss him. You WILL get over it... you WILL laugh again. You WILL not regret it... you WILL be delivered.
*Hugs* I'm living proof mama. There is life after him. And a BETTER one too. =) But the worst part... is that FIRST part. Get past that and it's all gravy. *hugs* Please feel free to write me if you need anything... I'll give you my number!!!
Karen
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